T______________________Two weeks

I miss her so much.
Why?
I know. In three weeks time, I will be home.
I know. I will be able to see her soon. I know. I know about it more than you know.
Yet. After that, in two weeks time, I will be back to UTP.
Till then. Until next semester. I won’t be seeing her.
I have two weeks only. Only two weeks.
Sob sob.



They just proposed the new date for coming back to UTP. Before this, in three weeks time. They changed it. FYI. They are not forcing actually. Yet … sob. sob.



I know.
It is my choice for joining.
It is my choice for agreeing to go back early.



Although Mummy said, don’t. quit. no. never.
Sorry mum.
I just…
I already want it since long long time ago.
And since now I am able to join it,
I will not let it go.



Yet.
People.
I cannot pretend
That I was not shocked when I …
sigh.
That I am not in pain
That I am not in sorrow.



Yet.
Mum.
Ujie bukan saja-saja mo jauh-jauh dari rumah.
Ujie bukan saja-saja mo have fun dan join mana-mana event lam UTP.
Ujie bukan saja-saja mo susahkan mummy.
Ujie bukan saja-saja mo wat mummy rasa left out.



Fine.
Semua sama. Situasi kita sama.
Tak kira lah how far the distance.
Semua tetap jauh dari rumah.
Semua tetap rindukan ibu bapa.



The difference is…
I am not strong enough …
especially now.
I am not.



Sorry.
For being too manja.
For being too emotional.
For loving her so much that I miss her so much and I cannot live without her in distance.



Sorry.
It is just, this time, now, and till when I do not know,
I miss her
badly.



Do not ask…
how bout your daddy?
sisters?
I miss them too.
I miss the babies too.
I miss the cousins too.
I miss the granpa too.
I always miss my late granma.
Just, I miss mummy more. much much more.



I don’t blame anyone.



NVM. pandai-pandailah pujuk diri sendiri.
I’ll be okay. I’ll be just fine.

.sob

Mummy. I miss you.

Really miss you.

Sangat sangat.

Rindu banyak banyak.

Banyak macam ini.

Kawan-kawan, boleh tolong sambungkan tangan lagi tak?

sob. sob.

It is over

phew.
thank God.
habis gak. tests. presentations. assignments. projects.
Gila stress dan penat hari ni.
X sempat makan even.
Makseh Lebai cuz bawa mekrang kua g mcD.
We really need to go out.



Sori lah kepada sapa2 yang kena marah.
Saya marah for strong reasons.
Besides, the workloads caused Ujie became too emotional.
And and and, last minute problems also …
Adeh.
Who would not get mad weh.
m trying not to be racist.
Pa pa pun.
Let's forgive and forget.



Gudlak final people.
(so lemah eh me..)
Again.
Gudlak final people~~~~~~~~~~! ^^



Hectic day.
Nak tido awal malam ni.
Nak bangun awal gak esok.



Good night mummy. I miss you sangat sangat nih. I wish I cud celeb xmas and/or my 21st bday with u. But den … nvm … xnk fikir sal tu dulu. Sigh.


Good night rumet. Sori. Kamek tido awal oh. Keep on studying for tomorrow's test. Gudlak eh babe!


Good night gerek. Saje nak ucap gudnite. Tho kitak loser, kamek tetap sayang kitak. haha. (serius ni). jumpa weekend?



Good night.
Good night.
Good night.
Good night people.
Zzzz.